James 1:5-6 - If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind.
This verse has been so true as I share the next amazing phase of our journey…
As we have diligently gathered the many documents needed to compile our dossier for China, I continued to pray another pray. God’s hand had been evident in adding Esther (Lan) to our family; therefore, I further sought His will, asking “is there another, Lord?” Mind you, I hadn’t mentioned the possibility of bringing home two to my husband as he had previously mentioned that he likely wouldn’t pursue two at once again, if that time ever came. Recalling this had my stomach in knots but I knew if God could soften my husband’s heart for Esther, then I knew He would do it again.
With faith, I challenged God to show me signs if there is another child out there who He is asking us to parent. Additionally, knowing I would be in the midst of my internship when we travel, I told God (lol, I know, sound funny to think I could put parameters on this)that if we were to bring home two, there was no way I could spend three weeks in China, like last time. This would mean that the second child would have to be in the same province, but not necessarily the same city, as Esther.
Would you believe that within days of deliberately seeking God’s will, I received the file for a child who I have watched age before my eyes. A child I have advocated for but never knew the province he resided in. After a quick search to determine the city he resides in, BINGO, I found he happens to be the same province as Esther!!! My heart skipped a beat and I chuckled because I knew God was right there with me with, along with a huge grin on his face. Okay God, I get it, you have a second child you want us to parent. Now how are we going to fund two adoptions, God? This journey wasn’t on our radar. Again, I had yet to break the subject of adopting two with my husband; I needed God to prove that this was His will.
While I knew he likely had this all worked out, I needed proof. God showed up once again. About mid-October I learned that the field instructor for my internship that was supposed to begin October 27th was resigning. No problem, I contacted my plan B location but they too were unable to accommodate me, at this time. That means the start date for my internship gets pushed off till January 11th, which now allows me to substitute teach for the next 8 weeks = extra income!!! While this won’t cover all the adoption fees, it will be helpful, especially with the holiday season upon us!
The time had come to approach my husband. The timing finally felt right. What I anticipated would be a “state and persuade my case” discussion, turned out to be another answered prayer. God had prepared his heart for this!!! I nearly cried as a sense of peace washed over me knowing that God was in control, not me. So surprise, or maybe not…..but we’re going to China for two again...this time for a daughter and a son!!!
Who is this child? Stay tuned for the big reveal!